I get the feeling my mum has always hated me. She just gets me to do stuff for her and then treats me like crap. She's said I'll be doing her a favour. You're costing me a fortune. Then I felt oh cheers nice to know I'm loved. I don't know why I put my validation on my mum. I don't have enough money and I'm scared of loneliness and homeless. I feel like sometimes I don't want to be here and that I have no purpose. i've cut my leg and I deserve it. What is the point of buying me stuff if it means nothing? I wish I was aborted seriously. I have no reason to be here.