You won’t go medless , Psychiarist will start you on a medication to see how it helps or not. But to just diagnose you in 30 mins ? No Pdoc will do that and you don’t want one too.

When was the last time you had a physical with full lab work ? Sometimes it can a physical reason for some of your symptoms. Thyroid can mimic all kinds of mental illness. Hormones too. It’s best to rule out physical possible problems before jumping on a psych meds.

Psych meds come with a huge amount of possible harm to your physical body. Some can kill off your thyroid , some kidneys some liver. They can make you foggy and forgetful some studies show it can cause long term brain problems that can not be reversed.

I know your in a bad spot but the reality is anything that revolves around mood episode or shifts needs to be taken seriously and treated by a trained physician.

You can always go to the hospital and be admitted to a IP program and they will start treating you and get you set up with a Doctor once you are discharged

I hope you decide to take this serious and not just otder something online that you will just take and have no idea what’s in it. Personally I would never order a psych med or physical meds for myself online , gawd only knows what your getting.