Hi everyone my name is Colleen and when I was 11 I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder but none of the medications worked for me they either made me act borderline psychotic or a zombie. I've been off medication for 5 years now and after a lot of digging and trying to find out what might be the cause of my behavior as a child and now I've come to the conclusion that my behaviors now and as a child resonate more with the autism spectrum than with bipolar disorder but because I'm female and seem "normal" it's been impossible for me to get a real diagnoses. Is there anyone who might be able to give me a correct diagnosis because while I've come a long way I definitely need some help.

I've been having really bad anxiety over the last couple years because of a roommate I had who was trying to help but ended up having the opposite outcome.