Thank you all for responding. With past therapies, I was the one who decided when I felt I ready to discontinue so imagine my surprise when my recent therapist said it was time for me to move on. My jaw dropped. She said I had reached my goals for coming in but the problem with that is during the process of reaching those goals more trauma was uncovered and, in my mind, my goals updated. As I walked to my car that day all I heard was my little girl inside my head yelling “but I have more to say”. I felt betrayed, angry, sad, and lost. This therapist and I had really connected and I was feeling more whole than I ever had. We did spend a couple sessions discussing my feelings about this and she said I could come back anytime, she would always be there for me but in my mind the moment was gone. My trust was gone. She said that my life appeared to be just about perfect so why would I want to rock the boat. I didn’t think that was an appropriate comment so my paranoid demon woke up and I started wondering if she had an agenda. I guess what I am hoping to gain from this post is some validation that I’m not crazy, that what I am feeling is real. I am still very angry because I felt I was gaining momentum but the flow was interrupted. I’m also very sad, I feel betrayed by this woman who I felt very connected to and who was really helping. I realize that you are only hearing one side of the story. You know, probably just getting this out of my head is all I need to move on, that’s usually how it works, so thank you all very much for listening.
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