I posted to the check-in right as the limit was reached, and my post was lost...

I had a busy day today. I couldn't run, which made me anxious, but I did manage just enough time to walk 2 miles. If I had run, I wouldn't have had time to shower and would have been dripping sweat at the pdoc's. Saw the pdoc, who gave me low dose 25 mg Seroquel to try to help with those drawn out panic attacks I've been having, so long as I'm not driving or about to drive. We'll see how that works. He didn't seem super concerned about the ED stuff or the dissociation. Then, he says to come back in a week. So I don't know.

I saw the PCP, who has known me for over 14 years and has seen me through ups and downs, a pregnancy, a fairly bad relapse and recovery. She did send me for bloodwork (was honest & told her about the excessive running) because losing too much weight too rapidly can cause things like electrolyte imbalances. I also didn't realize that the latest bloodwork she had was requested not that long post surgery, when I first started seeing the new pdoc (maybe early April). It had some small abnormalities in it, but they were all things to be expected post-ulcer surgery. However, whatever tests she ordered today, they took 6 vials of blood. Thank God I didn't need to be fasting because I still almost passed out (it's always about 50/50).

The PCP had a social worker come in, who did give me some paperwork about helping with mortgages in times of hardship, so I will gather what I need, and call them tomorrow to see if anything can be done to help.

I had a lot of errands to run afterwards, and it seemed to take forever. Between that and chores, I had about 10 minutes to myself until I had to pick my daughter up from school. I pick her up as a walker, and wouldn't you know it, a horrible thunderstorm passed through, the kind with tons of thunder & lightning. It was too late in the day to change my daughter's status leaving school from a walker to a car rider, so we braved it, and I got soaked. I also found my daughter outgrew her rain boots, so I'll have to go shopping for a new pair tomorrow.

I don't really know what my mood is like. So-so I guess. I've been too busy to think beyond the next errand or chore which is maybe good when things are so stressful. I haven't had any down time once I got my daughter up for school until now.