As I sip on my adult beverage in a solo cup, I will say that I use alcohol as a self medication.

I don’t think that I ever get past the numb state. That is what I aim for and then just kind of hang out there.

I don’t actually think that it’s actually noticeable. I hope not anyway.

I’m pretty good at hiding under the radar; as I’ve always been.

I don’t like myself for it.

ETA:

Well. I came back to delete what I put here.

I decided to leave it.

The real goal is to be real right?

Just wanted to say that and leave it.