it's so weird, my pdoc upped my dosage which is making me feel better. yet, i started drinking again. i don't understand my brain. but i bet i won't even tell you about it because i'm a piece of ****. i wish i could see you once a week, maybe even twice a week, but it's just not possible. i know i could go to private practice and be able to do that, but i like you too much to leave and i can't afford private practice anyway.

anyway i'm sorry i'm such a ****** client, you deserve better. you deserve the truth.