I have quite a few issues that really need to be discussed with my wife. But every time I try and bring these issues up for discussion seems to be the wrong time ! There’s always some excuse for not delving into it. Or , she just doesn’t bother to even answer me at all, or directly changes the subject. She makes it feel like I’m “ imposing “ on her time. I think this is a textbook case of passive aggressiveness. She’s an expert at it. Being the narcissist that she is she also does a good job at gaslighting me about almost everything I have to say.
Needless to say my depression is taking a dive because I don’t have what it takes to call her out on it. I make ultimatums that I don’t keep. And she knows this. I’m not afraid of being alone , again , if necessary. But I really wanted to make this work. The thing is I am very frustrated in many areas due to physical and mental problems. So going out there and starting over in my 60’s is not something I really want to do. Yet I’m so unhappy. I’m in therapy but he’s no help at all except to vent. I have no friends. I have no family I can talk to. I feel so alone in this humongous world of ours. I’m sad. I’m crying. I’m too much of a softie. I’m tired of fighting. Help. Thank you for letting me vent here , it’s always been a great place to share what I’m feeling. Thank you and peace to you all.