I wanted to write more, but really it is best for me to say what vertigo wrote above.

I am the type that always wants to include a positive with negatives. Today is not a "positive" feeling day for me, but yesterday was. I've had positive excitedly hopeful days sprinkled between OK and low days for a while. I accept that as my current reality with my bipolar disorder.

I'm in my mid 40s and don't know what my future holds. However, I am curious and I try to stay curious. I tell myself again and again that the storm will end. After the forest burns down, new growth will sprout.