Awful panic attacks today.

So, I found two events related to my plan to work overseas. I failed to get the working holiday visa talkshow since the reservation tickets were sold out, but I am in the waiting list (I hope someone cancelled his/her reservations.) In the end, I got the ticket to foreign study education booth and exhibition. I was excited when I registered. Sadly, after I received the ticket, I was overwhelmed.

It always like this. Thinking about working overseas and future plans always make me anxious and depressed. My current situation always makes me feel stuck in a hole, and yet taking this big step is too risky and scary. I can't do anything but chase the latter again and again and again... Even though anxiety visits me afterwards.

Phew, this is quite a long vent for this daily check-in.