Well... not really knowing anything about you... my thought would be you may or may not need to see a "shrink" (a psychiatrist). At least the way it is where I live, all most psychiatrists do is to prescribe & monitor psych med's. Any-&-all therapies are left to mental health therapists. So my personal opinion would be that, before you would see psychiatrist, it might make sense to start by seeing therapist. Of course, they cost money too. So, since that is an issue for you, the alternative may be to see if there are no-cost or income-adjusted mental health services that are available where you live. That may not be a great solution. But it may be the one that is available to you.

As far as your having seen shrinks in the past during your childhood to no avail my impression at least is that, as with anything else, there are good ones & there are not-helpful ones out there. Plus, personalities & approaches differ. Not every mental health professional works well with every client. It's a matter of looking around & trying a few out until you find someone you feel comfortable with. Here are links to 11 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, first on how to find a good psychiatrist & then on how to find a good therapist. Also included is an article on what to do when you can't afford therapy. Hopefully some of the information in these articles can be of some help:

How Do I Find a Good Psychiatrist?

9 Habits of Highly Effective Psychiatrists

What Makes A Good Psychiatrist? | Polishing the Fragments

Find a Therapist

How Do You Find a Good Therapist? An Interview with Dr. John Grohol

https://psychcentral.com/blog/what-t...fford-therapy/

https://psychcentral.com/find-therapist/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-way...ood-therapist/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/more-o...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/tips-o...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/key-qu...dium=popular17