I am doing ok,I feel peaceful, I am sad to see my mum ageing into very old age now,she is 89.I saw my cousin who came to visit her today,he is 35,blew my mind,I visited his mum in hospital when he was born,I rocked him to sleep when he was a baby.
I had therapy session on Monday,I told the therapist I didn't know where the years have gone,I feel they flew by and I didn't make the most of them,I regret that I didn't do more with the time I told her,I didn't love more,make more friends,go and enjoy myself,I was just ill all the time.My therapist said it isn't about the past it is about now and the future and making the most of it now.Enjoying every day she said.I thought about it and thought yeah,now is what is important so don't worry about what went before and don't waste time regretting the past.So yeah I think I am coping ok,better today.