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mckell13 said:
I think I need a child specialist.
</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">It really is wonderful to have her. I am sorry we must part ways once the divorce is over. She told me she could refer me to a family therapist for similar services at the end. Not sure if I could bear to take yet another person into the fold.
Thanks, MissCharlotte. I feel better indeed that she called. I did not think I was angry at her, but I am not the most in-touch-with-my-feelings person. She called as soon as she was able and I got the advice I needed. You did say something that caught my attention:
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I remember recently when you got angry at T and wanted to hold on to your anger.
</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">No, I was not angry at my T. Last week at my session, I expressed a tremendous amount of anger in session, but it was not directed at my T, but at other people and at life events. For a while after my session, I felt I should apologize to T for my angry behavior (it's highly embarrassing to me to act that way!), but I did not give in to this impulse, as my adult self felt I had the right to express anger in his presence--it was the child in me who was feeling embarrassed and needed reassurance. I am glad I stuck to my guns! Anger is hard for me.
At my most recent session a few days ago, when T and I were riding the elevator up to his office together, he said something like, "I was really worried about you after you left last time." I said, "yeah, I really dropped a lot of stuff when I was here." But I did not apologize! He said, "that's what I am there for."
Then the elevator came to a stop and he turned to walk out, but the door did not open, and he bonked right into the door.
That seems like the sort of doofus thing I would do! So much for intense elevator convos... WARNING: do not do therapy in an elevator!
Yes, thank you, my daughter is doing better!
