That is it. I figure I am done with it. I am plus 50 now so I don't have to try and be like my 20 year old athletic self. Still, it is upsetting the weight I have gained in my five medicated years - the last year in particular. Arrrgh! I was really hating myself there. But the boyfriend said something recently that really put a smile on my face and made me realise he meant it when he said he thought I was attractive. What a relief. I am going to do my best then to have the perspective that I can still look good despite the thicker middle. I refuse now to cry over it anymore. I am saying stuff-it. I am 51 and beautiful.