This is your thread, dear Fuzzybear, but I can't help myself directing your words at myself.

Would I be better off if I had never sought help?
"No" is the officially sanctioned answer, but I cannot help but wonder.
Might I have found another, "natural" way out that would have resulted in a more functional me?
I'll never know; I did not take that path.

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))