Having someone there for me, completely, 100%, on my team, with unconditional positive regard, helping me through dark times (depression) and SH and SI and still being there for me even though I feel like crap and probably don't deserve the positive regard, someone who gives me perspective and helps me rethink some of the things in my head that were either put there in childhood or just my own backward thinking, someone who helps keep me safe from SI and from other harmful ideas I sometimes get when I'm having an episode. It's not like talking with a friend because when I talk to a friend I have to censor what I say and not make it all about me, and I have to make sure my friend is okay and can handle what I'm sharing whereas I expect a T to be able to handle what I'm feeling and sharing. I don't expect a T to be there for me at 2 in the morning or go sit with me in the ER but I do think some of my friends would do that for me in a heart beat.