So I am not sure where to put this. I dont really want to trigger anyone. I need help and I know I am not a well individual. I went to therapy last Wed. and my therapist said what comes to mind when you think of shame I said just alot of chatter. (Chatter to me is just things that pop into my head like I dont want to be here in this room right now, i dont want to think about this etc.) So then she does some EMDR tapping on my knees. Then says that she thinks my mother sexually abused me then read me a mother daughter incest column from Ann Landers. She said that column didnt throw up any red flags but two things I told her in the past did. 1) that since around 8 probably even closer to 5 I have been sexually and emotionally attracted to women that are mother figure types. Teachers, counselors, Sunday school teachers etc. 2) i know this is bad but i dont act on these thoughts. The fact that there is something exciting to me and not sexually about woman wounded by sexual abuse. I noticed this at 9 when I was watching a play with my teacher about good touch bad touch and I could tell she was feeling some kind of way. Sometimes I bad thoughts about if I had hurt a woman I know or dont as a child. How I would have wounded them its just interesting but the farthest thing I want to do is hurt anyone. Anyway these two things are what she is basing her theory ( and she said it was just that)on that my mother sexually abused me when I said no I dont think so she said well it could have been some other woman but she thinks it was a woman. I mean is it just mean or is that a long shot theory just based on the two things I told her.