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Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist
I consider myself straight. I don't like grown up men. But I do like grown up women. I am a teenager (about to turn 18) and on my observations so far it's a normal phase of development to be a bisexual boy or girl, but...
I sometimes listen to Taylor Swift. Especially, the song
makes me giggle a lot. Whenever I daydream, I dream of usually daydream about the good, flirtatious moments I had with my 'friends.' I may be locked up in my house and have poor social skills, but I look sort of manly. Now to to brag or anything but I am around 5'9, weight 100kg (but the hair on my body covers it up) and look pretty good looking sometimes when I dress rightly and use perfumes, and especially neat after recent hair cut.
So yes I find thinking myself more about guys than girls. Especially the guys that look cute (as opposed to those that look like me)... Do I have gender dysphoria or something? All of them must be thin (not too thin), have appropriate height, etc. |
Does it matter to you if you’re straight or bi or gay? I mean — right now — at 17, I don’t think that you need express a preference but rather experience each expression of sexuality that you desire and then, maybe, take on a label.
At your age I knew that I was bisexual (though I’d never heard the word spoken aloud!). Now that we’ve the umbrella of
queer that’s my self-description.
In long-term relationships with guys (and simultaneously in relationships with girls) I, too, found thin (and hair-free!) guys more attractive than the more fit guys with smidgens of body hair (e.g., my own body type). My longest-lasting male/male relationship spanned over two decades — with a lot of travelling — and was often shared with others; more specifically, I had a preference for multiple partners, usually (in some way) including men and women.
Hence, I’m quite comfortable with queer.
My advice, from an old queer to a (impossible to determine, yet!) young and only possible queer, is to allow and seek pleasure without any proclamations.
Enjoy life and become good at living.