Hello, I am new to this so please let me know if I am not doing this correctly. I am a 39yo female, have had depression x 20yrs, anxiety/panic x 15yrs, and PTSD. Right now I am barely hanging on. I have 8 months of sobriety and see a therapist weekly. I don't know where to start, but I am having new physical and emotional symptoms that are scaring me. Physical- Weight gain, hair loss, melasma, random high/low heart rate to a point where I have had to call paramedics(>140 or <60), debilitating fatigue, (simple things like washing my hair are exhausting), I haven't slept through the night in over a year, edema in feet/lower legs, stomach problems, incontinence. Mental/emotional- uncontrollable, scary mood swings (past 4 months), nightmares/sweats, extreme panic episodes. More recently I have been finding myself confused by things as simple as writing the date on a form, having difficulty understanding things, memory loss, complete losses of time - eg- no memory of having done or said things. My therapist knows most of this, however, I wanted to get checked out by a doctor to make sure nothing physical was wrong. He refused to run a single blood test to check things like my hormone and thyroid levels or even help with my antidepressant medication. He said to see an obgyn and put in a GI referral (but no one has called and they haven't returned my calls). The only test he ran was a urine renal panel which showed elevated levels of creatinine and protein, and did nothing with those results either. So I went to a gynecologist to see if they would at least check my estrogen levels- he defended the other doctor and refused to run any tests as well and told me to tell my concerns to the first doctor to have tests run. I left in tears, I feel utterly defeated and don't know where to turn or what to do. Any advice would be greatly appreciated as I just don't have much fight left