I’ve been questioning some things for a while. Some habits or things that other people don’t consider normal. I don’t want to alert my family to this before I make sure of what is happening. I don’t know if what I have is DID or Borderline Personality Disorder or if I’m normal and just anxious or something... but here it is. Recently I’ve been forgetting doing a lot of things. Stuff that I shouldn’t have forgotten doing or saying. The only reason I know this is happening is my family will tell me or remind me of it. What kind of a person drowns a black widow while watching and doesn’t remember? Who insults their siblings and can’t recall? Recently I’ve been brushing it off as a shot memory and who knows maybe it is. I would still call it a shot memory except for my problems controlling my actions when I’m angry. It’s like I’m retreating into myself while my body is numbly moving. That’s the best way I can explain it. I honestly can’t or at least haven’t been able to control myself yet when I’m in that “numb” phase. No one has been able to explain that to me yet. Other than emotional instability and memory loss, I have trouble separating reality and imagination. It sounds rediculous but I have to almost “extract” my mind from a book or movie and even after I do, I sometimes find myself forgetting that the other world doesn’t exist. I also find myself unable to focus at random times like when a friend is talking, eating, even playing sports. You name it and I’ve probably spaced out once or twice doing it. Is this DID or am I paranoid? At this point I’m not sure.