maybe this will help some. I copy these things from another website that I found.

Normal Grief Reactions
When experiencing grief, it is common to feel . . .

like you are "going crazy"

unable to focus or concentrate

irritable or angry (at the deceased, oneself, others, higher powers)

frustrated or misunderstood

anxious, nervous, or fearful

like you want to "escape"

guilt or remorse

ambivalence

numbness


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