Bad, bad day. I hate myself and wish so much that perforated ulcer had killed me . I’m safe, not going to harm myself, but I am so low and just sinking lower.

My daughter actually hit me this morning on purpose. She has only been spanked once in her life, around 4 yr old after ignoring warnings for mistreating our cat to the point where the cat could have been badly hurt. My husband has never been physically violent to me. All I was doing was trying to help her get ready to make it to school on time. Just thinking about it makes me cry.
No help from HUD and other housing help agencies . We have to have at least 31% equity in our home for the HUD help, and estimations put it at 28% equity.

God, this day is awful.