Hi TheLonelyChemist. Did your psychiatrist actually say "shut up"?? He doesn't sound very validating to say the least. No one has the right to tell you what you can't do.
I'm unclear about your family situation. They don't let you go out and socialize with friends? Is there a reason your mother . says " Don't let your kid go outside, he's gonna be a perfect high-ranking official.."
what does she mean by that? To have your psychiatrist say " I am interested in conquering the world. Does my aim sound realistic to you?" How RUDE and IGNORANT! Did your father hear any of this conversation? I don't have words for the way you're being treated.

I'm sorry if I am asking to many questions but this whole thing enrages me.