We are not behind on mortgage payments yet. But all the other bills...I may have 2 little bits of relief this month. An interfaith league sends a representative to a Starbucks seating area in a grocery store Thursday mornings at 9 AM. I think you can maybe use them once or twice a year. They usually will help a little with one bill. Maybe our 2nd mortgage which is around $125/month. Then, I have an appointment at the Catholic Church at 11 tomorrow. They will evaluate your situation and bills and while they may not pay the entire 1st mortgage ($850/month), they might help out with it. I have to see if we have bills for utilities, etc. that have not been paid already. It is tricky because we have a lot of those bills are drafted directly from the bank, and we get the paper afterwards. Maybe not the city utilities (roughly $100/month). I don’t know if we have been billed for it yet this month or not. I will ask my husband.

So many bills, only $2000 to cover them. No help from a single state or federal agency, phone call after phone call. Beyond frustrating. And what would I do if I had a job where my daughter had to catch the school bus alone in the morning, and I don’t think she could reliably do it herself? Then there would have to be childcare, yet another cost. And scheduling around pdoc appts. Oh, I don’t know, maybe something might work. But just this week, I have had 2 panic attacks lasting over 1 hr each, too many crying breakdowns to count, computer skills way out of date. Zero referrals. Starting to look like a walking skeleton too. Can’t stop the running though I am doing less lately; it’s an addictive go-to coping mechanism. I have never been this stressed out in my entire life.