So, this is nothing more than a rant to blow off some steam and might not accomplish much, but I’m going to do it anyway. There might not be anything anyone can say in response to this (aside from common clichés, and that’s ok), but I want to rant anyway to get this off my chest.
I’m fed up with being single (there, I’ve said it). Depending on how you look at it, I’ve been single for 2-3 years. Ok, I’ve been out on a few dates in that time, but none that have lasted for very long (and no one with whom I’ve felt a proper connection), so I don’t really feel like I’ve stopped being single during that time. Most of the time it’s fine and I just go about my life. Sometimes though, it gets me down. It’s a huge cliché, but I seem to see couples in so much of what I do (i.e. in my day-to-day life) – everyone on my team at work (apart from me) is married/in a long-term relationship, a lot of my close friends are in (long-term) relationships, so many people I know through hobbies/social clubs are in relationships, even just walking down the street/through the park, I seem to see couples all of the time, and it gets me down. To be clear, I don’t have anything against these people; in fact, I’m happy for them. It just really grates on me that I’m not in their position.
Perhaps what annoys me is that I don’t know whether there’s much more I can do, apart from just wait. Obviously what I do isn’t perfect, otherwise I probably wouldn’t be single, but I’m not sure what else I could be doing. What I mean by this is that I try to follow various bits of advice I’ve read/been given – I try to look after myself (physically and emotionally), I exercise, I try to eat healthily, I try to do things I enjoy, I try to get enough sleep, I go out and socialise with my friends, I socialise with different groups of people, I stay in touch with old friends and try to meet new people as well etc. To be clear, I do these things because I enjoy them and/or because they’re good, fun, or beneficial to me
I’m (only) in my 20s and I know that, if I just wait and relax about this, things will be ok. I’m just sick of waiting (not that that makes a difference). I realise that the more I want to meet someone the less likely that is to happen, but I’ve tried for the past few years to focus on not wanting a relationship and concentrate on other things, which hasn’t done me much good, so why do I bother? Also, before anyone says, I know that being in a relationship won’t magically and instantly solve any other problems I might have, and that not everyone who is in a relationship is happy all the time. (There are probably many more relationship clichés I could fire off here as well, but I don’t want to get bogged down in them) Being single affords you more freedom and, yes, that is good sometimes, but is it so bad to want another person in your life?
As I say, this is mainly just a rant, as I feel some of this has been building for a while and I wanted to get this off my chest before it makes me any more stressed. If anyone has any nuggets of wisdom they’d like to share, please, be my guest. (I could have written more, but I didn't want to bore people/go on too many tangents.) Otherwise, thank you for indulging my rant.
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I apologise for rambling. I find it difficult to write concisely and feel that choosing to write incoherently is better than not writing at all. Thank you for your time.
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