Everyone, thanks for your thoughts and support - I appreciate it

Bebop, I'm really sorry to hear about your aunt. I've been pretty much off the boards this week and didn't read about it

I think that all of you are speaking elements of the truth about me and my stage in the process.

I'm mostly just thinking out loud... I just want to make sure that I don't bury my feelings. When my mom died, I really didn't cry - I think I cried for the first time this past July, 22 years after her death. Go figure. I'm slow, I guess...