We are alcoholic and addict...it numbs and deadens most of the inner conflicts...our inner world is sedated making life more pleasant. It’s like manna for our soul to relax and forget the daily intense opposing feelings from every part. For every no there is a few yes, for every yes there a few no’s followed by strife, turmoil, hurt feelings, fear,....

Right now...nvr mind.

It’s also more a necessary ball and chain that we won’t cut away. It’s our ticket to numbness and a quicker way out.

Thank you God, life, family, parents, and the rest of jerk off humanity.