I want to understand why I need to push things until they are spelled out in black and white or right there in front of my face.

I find that most people are the exact opposite. They would much rather ignore or walk away from a situation rather then deal with confrontation.

Unfortunately, not I! It is not always confrontation for me, many times it is proving to myself that my thoughts are correct. Example, the ridiculous idea that I should see my ex with his new girlfriend! I am not talking about stalking. I am not talking about confrontation. This is just a real life acknowledgment. Is this type of behavior because I enjoy tearing my heart out? Is it because I am a closure nut?

I think I have an unhealthy need to find out why or the what in almost every failed personal relationship or friendship. I can drive myself crazy with the reasons or what ifs! Is this just really obsessive behavior or something else. And what can I do to control it.

How can I learn to just move on because sometimes there is no reason, or as in the example above do I like re-breaking my heart?