over the last 3 or so months ive been trying to figure out what is happening in my head, with my life.
your post DID resonate with me. Like a lot of other people i have exactly the same thoughts. Although im not articulate enough to have put a finger on it the way you did.
The main part that struck me was how you felt you couldnt talk about your concerns because you didnt want to seem like you were seeking attention.
Even now, signed into this site, i still dont feel i can go to someone and say "hey! i think i have BPD and i want to sort it out!"
when i look at that as a scenario i imagine whoever im telling will just think im weak and looking for someone to unload all their problems to.
Let me know how you go finding someone who knows a bit about BPD and whether or not they can shed some light on it for you.