She's trying to help me move away, we're working on this issue and she was very pleased when I recently told her I think I might be able to move away next year. She said she was proud of me.
That's why I absolutely don't understand why nie she's saying this.
I asked her if she thinks living in my parents place at 30 is normal and if painting is the same achievement as having a baby. Her answer was in terms of who decides what exactly is an accomplishment and that my achievements are valid... This made me feel absolutely terrible and stressed because instead of agreeing with her I came up with more and more arguments supporting my claim and I was ruminating whole day. It was very stressful to me.
I would understand if she b did this if I said I was an absolute loser. But I explicitly said "I'm not a total loser, just a small one". And I also said I'm as strong and courageous as a person with my trauma and hypersensitivity can be. But I'm not successful in terms of normal healthy people.
Maybe I am crazy but I see nothing wrong or illogical with this analysis.
Her trying to persuade me in not even a small loser makes me much more frustrated and makes me search for more and more arguments why I really am worse.