My Support Forums - View Single Post - Dear T: I Really Need to Tell You Something...Part XXXIV

AnnaBegins · Aug 23, 2018, 09:25 AM

Nothing seems to matter much anymore. Not showering and showing up for work. Not watching any of my shows or playing any of my favorite games. Not eating foods I used to like.

Even my daughter doesn't matter much...more than any of those other things but still less than she should.

I need you. And my dog.

And that doesn't matter either...

Possible trigger:

I still have directions to the train station in my purse. There's still no fence. I can almost feel the earbuds in my ears, almost hear the music in my phone, almost feel the ties under my feet shaking as the train approaches.

It would be a mercy. Just like what I had to do for my dog to end his suffering. Except no one is there anymore to end mine so I have to do it myself.