Well I am feeling pretty bad right now, but also been able to push myself still to do things like shower, basic household chores. Trying to keep moving and not think on it too long. Going to visit family tomorrow out of state for about a week, so hopefully that will brighten things up for me a bit. I woke up at 4 am last night feeling very depressed, sad, to the point that I started crying out of nowhere and couldn't fall back to sleep for an hour or so. Things seem a little better in the light of day, though. And it is a beautiful day outside, not too hot yet, but still sunny.