It's been awhile since I been here. I've been struggling and I know reaching out is supposed to be the best thing, but I always get rejected IRL. I thought I would try here. Really struggling so I reached out to my doctor who turns out he is out of town this week. His schedule is always really full but could see PA for meds. I don't trust people so for me to see a new PA for meds has me so overly anxious. I can't focus or concentrate today. I know he has emergency appointments but he did say to see a PA so I could get in but I don't even know if I will go to the PA. Too anxious and I know she will judge me just like everyone else does. Do I call and say I want an appointment or just go, or just get over it. I'm not sure. I really don't know what I want or what I should choose. I don't want to be a pain either and force an appointment for me when it's one of his emergency appointments for true emergency's