Psychiatrist is holding me back because it's my parents who raised me isolated from society, because they're mentally ill and have a different point of view about parenting and what's essential and non-essential. They think it's not essential to have anything other than an academic life. So since childhood they isolated me from the rest of the society, didn't let me have friends, didn't let me play with other kids. The only thing that seems essential to them is to have a "government career." To be a class-one officer. So they (especially my mom) thinks I shouldn't socialize...

They lack the medical insight about what's actually the real deal. For ****'s sake you need to go outside to survive... you cannot just sit at home reading a textbook and become some high ranking official. They don't understand this, their narrow mindedness is great. So I lack basic skills needed in life, that includes communication skills and ability to ride bikes... I am basically intellectually disabled because of them. How ironic.

I don't know.... I can never be someone I want to because I have been abused.

My mother used to beat me because she had (and still has) an uncontrollable amount of rage and random bursts of anger. It's a cause to my massive anxiety. And also my brain damage.

I do not know, I want to do something good, for myself, for the rest of the world, but the universe is like, "Oh, nope. Lol."