I just need to get this out... I’m really struggling right now. Last night I cried harder than I ever have before about how hurt I feel by T. I also read a blog a few minutes ago and the individual talks about how loving her therapist is, how affectionate and warm she is towards her. She talks about their sessions being full of hugging and reassurances. And while I certainly understand this individual probably feels incredible pain, it’s difficult to know there are Ts out there who offer this kind of healing and love. My T pushes me so hard and would never do these things so freely out of fear I’d become dependent on them.

I’m just pathetically jealous and sad.