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Old Aug 24, 2018, 04:56 AM
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Originally Posted by Lifeischallenging View Post
I hope this is the right thread to be posting. I haven't posted in so long. I think its been longer than a month. I finally have someone that I can spend time with. One of my coworkers. He is really a nice person. I feel a little dismayed that I made a friend now though. I'm 30 yrs old. Its not that I don't want friends; Its just that I feel like a failure for making friends at 30 years old. I have to look at it in a positive way though. At least I have a positive person to turn to. We share some interest too which is good. He has gotten me into some other things. Like trading card games and even want to try Runescape. He also wants to introduce me to his friends which did make me a little nervous in the beginning, but I don't think about it now.
I wish I could make another friend IRL. The only good friend I made was in college, just accidentally, a girl I sat next to in a required math course for the both of us. We were good friends all through college and probably still would be if she lived nearby, but she got married after doing an internship in New England and now works as a vet in Connecticut, so seeing her is a rarity. The only other friends I consider I have IRL are my 2 sisters, both younger than I, but the age gap makes no difference now. One is in driving distance, but she has 3 girls age 7 & under; the other lives near Dallas (Plano, requiring a drive through Dallas first, & a hot area in Texas for new jobs), anywhere from a 4-6 drive from Houston, depending on traffic, accident, and road construction, especially in the Houston and Dallas areas as urban sprawl continues from both cities. Needless to say, I don't see that sister often because of the drive.

But I see my sisters as built-in friends, people I always knew growing up, who understand growing up under a verbally & physically abusive father (though getting much better as he ages). I never had to go out of my way to get to know them.
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