I do see the fragility of my own sanity Só leigheas, yes, I do. In fact, in some ways I do actually think I'm mad in terms of how distorted my thinking can get, if I don't stay on the ball. But I counter that by telling myself, well, if I'm mad for having distorted thinking then everyone's mad, because I personally believe everyone's thoughts are distorted to some degree. I mean you only have to look at the state of the world, the daily horrors, the every day abuses, to see that somethings not right in mans brain. But, yes, there have been a lot of days where I was very worried for my own sanity, sure.

Anyway, you're doing really well Só leigheas, a real fighter. And maybe having the subdued emotions is better than having the intense OTT types of emotions? I prefer the subdued, myself.