T,

I had bad dreams last night. I feel like I don't deserve to treat myself with compassion. I keep trying day by day, hour by hour, sometimes minute by minute to be who I want to be. I'm all but giving up on myself. I don't know what is wrong with me, but I always seem to get into these situations. It's like I'm not living life, it's more like life is happening to me, if that makes sense. I don't know why I am like this. I am tired of my social anxiety and I despise my horribleness.