Hello everyone. I suffer from depression and agoraphobia, diagnosis PTSD.
After years of bad therapists, I found a wonderful one who seems me free. He is a psychiatrist, and does the talk therapy.
I feel my progress has been minimal-(ie I am more agoraphobic than ever) He feels I've made great emotional strides, describing me as being an emotional infant at start, and now a adolescent more in charge of emotions.
About the only place I can go w/o feeling anxious is his office.
Now he is leaving the state, and suggests it maybe good for me to get a new start, since I have no emotional support / many traumatic experiences here.
I am confused. I am destitute, so I know I will not find another pyschiatric therapist, (clinics offer psych managment session, often 5 minutes once a month and social worker therapists). I was often institutionalized in state facilities by these programs, and never got meds that helped. (ie was on Lithium 3 years, and I'm not even manic depressive).
But I am also a little concerned this may be indicactive of countertransferance issue. I definitely fell in love w this therapist and was devastated when he married, but we worked it out. I know he is generous to a fault,-since I am on Medicare, he'd rather see me free than be bothered w the bureacracy- so that's unheard of
I want to move, (have no idea how I can financially, will probably end up in a bordering house), but worried this offer maybe more out of guit/ pity/ than sound decision making? Any comments welcomed