Can't keep up here right now. Sorry for those of you hurting. Sorry, Moose.

Was supposed to be contacted by a social worker or advocate today via phone. Surpirse, surprise, never was.

ED thoughts are mad because I didn't exercise and ate Cheezeits. Think I ate too many of them as I feel sick to my stomach now. Or maybe that't anxiety. I hope I don't overdo tomorrow. It's been a few days since a super long run. Weight still about the same, probably because I'm so panicky, I have no freaking appetite!

Had to take the low dose Seroquel again today for a prolonged panic attack. I think I've had one of those nearly every day this week. It made me want to sleep, but I didn't thinking this social worker would call. Stupid me, I just should have listened to my body and taken a nap.

I see the pdoc again on Monday morning.

My life sucks so bad. I don't even know the point any more