I know I post on here so much about my attachment issues with my therapist, but it is seriously the only place I’ve been able to process it completely other than with T. Sorry if it gets old.

I have been meeting with another therapist 1x month at the same clinic and that has been helpful. In the past when I’ve met with other Ts while seeing my current T who I am attached to, I have not got anything beneficial out of the sessions. However, while I’m pretty robotic (yet anxious) in session with new T, she has offered a lot of insight and I’m slowly becoming more comfortable sharing vulnerable stuff. Still robotic, numb, and detached, but I think my walls are coming down a tiny bit at a time.

I feel both encouraged and discouraged. I know my attachments to people are either on one end of the extreme or the other. I wish I could trust more easily without letting swept of my feet and getting caught in the vicious cycle. I wish I could more easily attach to new T and she could be a source of comfort for me too. That’s a risky thing to wish for given my history, but I wish I could spread my support without having to rely on a single person.