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Originally Posted by A Hobbit
I think the dr. would say that I’m hypomanic. If I do truly exhibit the symptoms identified with bipolar, then I would say that I spend a bunch of my existence in a mixed state, because I’m often agitated, touchy, and on the edge.
I would also say - again, if I am really bipolar - that I have rapid cycling. I’m known for being way up or way down, with little in the middle.
Something tells me I’m not really answering the question. Truthfully, I don’t know what the reality of my situation is. I usually have too much noise in my head to pay attention. I really don’t know what is real. I’ll think that I do, but when I try to explain what I’m thinking and feeling to my wife she often tells me that my perception isn’t aligned with reality. Other times she tells me I’m a genius. Go figure. But this has always happened; not just with my lovely soul-mate.
I said that to say this: it’s now 4:06 am!
No, not that. I said that to say this: I don’t know what my mood is like, but I remember my wife telling me that I’m acting differently. But I don’t see it.
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I understand.
My agitation is severe enough it even offends me! Trouble is, it's hard to treat!
I'm going to pretend to play pdoc for a minute here: Why on earth would a pdoc give Abilify to someone who is hypomanic or mixed? This makes no sense to me! How about something like Seroquel?
Your meds are not helping you.
Are you open to going back for different meds? Or do you feel you don't need them?
I try to listen to my spouse, too. He is usually right about my moods. I try really hard not to allow my inner agitation to affect him.
It must be fun to be a DJ!!! Everyone loves a DJ!!!
WC