Believe me, I offend myself. I can’t stand to be around me! That is why I believe that I just have deep character flaws - which, no matter how hard I have tried, I just can’t be a better person.

Doctors look at me and say, “Alright. There is something going on. He’s all over the place. Sometimes he climbing th walls, others he’s checked-out from the world” So they do what they do best: treat symptoms with medication.

Keep in mind, I am not seeing a PDOC; I am poor with no insurance. I saw a nurse practitioner at a health clinic for folk like me. She asked us a ton of questions, and about my mental history, etc., and immediately said that an SSRI is not a good idea, and that a mood stabilizer - in the form of an atypical antipsychotic would be the first step to try.

But, again, I just don’t know if medication can help someone like me.