People that have plastic surgery often strongly feel the perfect outer self will crate the perfect inner self...only to find, it doesn't.......there may be a few people that compliment you at first, but the outer attention wades away and you are left with the same INNER self, and fixing an inner self is a bit harder.......
have you ever checked out the site
www.forthelittleonesinside.com
it deals with the inner harming critic and how to send your inner self positive messages...
what kind of support system do you have, IRL? Once you have close, close friends you can get your inner needs met that way.....
I do find the sex industry very sexy sometimes and have desires not be in it, bit to get more sex than I get....even though I get a lot....
but I find myself craving something deeper sometimes........