I know this is wrong and childish and overreacting, but i get so pissed when my mom choses to give attention to other things/people rather than me. it makes me feel like anything is always more important than me.

i rationally know this is not true, but when she gives her attention to other things rather than me even when she knows i'd "need" her and i repeatedly asked for her to be with me and still choses to give her time and attention to others (especially when referred to certain other people), i go crazy and act so childish, like not talking to her, not doing what she asks me to do etc.

i know this is bad of me and i shouldnt but its stronger than me. its like i need to show her how angry and hurt she made me. because in our family, there always was something or someone more important and more needy than me. im sick of this. sick of always being put last and sick of my own reaction, expecting more than i always got….

what can i do?