Over the course of my... "journey" I've found that there are occasional moments of nothingness. I feel no joy, yet no pain. No happiness, no sadness. I feel nothing. Currently, I am experiencing this, and it brings an interesting thought to mind: Do I prefer this emotionlessness? When I actually do feel, I usually feel empty, sad, fearful, and in rare moments, happy. Is the happiness worth the pain? Would I rather feel joy and great pain, or nothing at all? I haven't come up with a solid answer myself. In these emotionless times, I don't necessarily feel "complete". It's as if I'm greatly reducing the pain to an almost unrecognizable level, but it is completely constant. It's tolerable. I don't know. At this point, I'm merely rambling.