I could have done nursing if I took a few months off. But I couldn't do it in my area because I couldn't do a placement in a place I was a patient in the mental wing. I would not have done mental health nursing.
And I needed guarantors for the college I chose so I had to have a specific career in mind. My family would not have been convinced, so I had to direction and conviction.
After my breakdown, my life was never going to be the same. I could have qualified in nursing but how long could I have held on to my facade before, I would have had to admit defeat? And go back to the drawing board.
I just thought I needed to get away from my hometown and the ghosts. I did get a chance to get away. It was just not what I expected. And I don't regret that I decided to follow my heart. Not yet.