Struggling today. Got up early ready to take on the day. Before noon I was back in bed, crying, feeling like nothing was worth it and like I was such a horrible person. It's the guilt and negative thoughts about myself that got me the most. Slept for a few hours. At least I made dinner and ate with my SO. Feeling hopeless, but slightly better. It's so hard to see through it sometimes or to imagine that it will ever improve.