without a lifeline in sight...My son is having mental health issues. In a nutshell without the yucky details he is experiencing severe anxiety mostly about school with irrational negative and fearful thoughts. I have no idea how to help him. Trying to talk to him only seems to make it worse. I upset him so much tonight that he didnt even want to hug and kiss me goodnight.

It is effecting me so badly that I'm taking FMLA from work starting on the 4th, since my job is a hot mess and horrible source of stress right now too. I am doing all things you are supposed to do. Therapy for him, found a psychiatrist for him which he was supposed see tomorrow for his initial visit but the doc got food poisoning. They will call me to reschedule tomorrow.

To make it even better, my Mom found a mass in her remaining breast on Friday. We just went through 2 years of breast cancer hell (she lives with me and we have no other family left). Was told in late december she was in remission. We asked to have both breasts removed and were told it wasnt necessary as the other breast was clear. Kicking ourselves for not pushing harder.

I'm trying so hard to hang on and not lose it. I am a ****ing mess. I don't know how any of us will make it and it's pretty much up to me. I have the pdoc on Friday. I'm just going to ask for any and all drugs he thinks I need to get through this. I was trying so hard to keep meds to a minimum but I give up.

Big thanks if you even made it through this pity party. It's a really bad night.