(((Rechu)))

You are not a failure. And for the record, stay until you're fired or get a new job. Just better financially.

Do you remember just a little over a year ago I was pushed out and fired. And I felt like a total failure too. That was my first job back after being on SSDI for 18 months, and I was trying SO hard to make things work at that old company. But the disgusting toxic, hostile, discriminatory work environment just won over my attempts to make things work.

You know (and I know because I talk to you all the time) that you are doing everything you can to meet these unreasonable demands and that this manager is being unfair. I think all you can do is continue to remind yourself that this whole thing has nothing to do with your work quality or ability. You have the evidence right in front of you, with them firing 11 people in 18 months (holy ****) and other people quitting as soon as they start. Remember the end game. You know you are looking for a new employment situation, and you only have to hold on until they fire you. Think of it as a game of chess and less of something with an emotional stake.

I understand not wanting to deal with people and hating going to work. I've been there. I worked so hard at my last job and hoped that, even though I hated it every day, that I could somehow turn it around or do something to make others happy. Fact is, we can't make others happy. We have no control over how they feel. Best you can do is detach yourself from it emotionally and try to take your self-worth and esteem from some other area of your life....which I know is difficult for women like us.

(((HUGS)))